Uncertainty

So short a time, yet so many recollections and moments...
So short a time, yet so many was gained and lost...

It was only 3 months time since university started, but I felt as if a year has passed. Even until now, I still feel amazed how smooth and rough things can be. I never expected college life would be so...so...unpredictable yet fun, at the same time. I didn't know that people would still be so nice in college, just like in high school. I've always assumed that people in college would not be that friendly as compared with people in high school, but I was happy to know that I was absolutely mistaken. Instead, I feel that my classmates now in college are far far better company than my classmates before. Sad to say, but true.

I remember before when I was still a new student in grade five, some of my new classmates treated me as if I was an alien, as if I'm an outcast. I don't know why and I really hate it. I hate the feeling of being isolated, just because I was new. I hate the way they look at me as if I had wings on my back or horns on my head. Am I that peculiar just because I came from another part of the country? I don't think so. Maybe its them who are peculiar. That is what I think of all the time to keep me from hitting or beating the crap out of someone.

How I got to find very very nice friends?I don't know. I guess its destiny. I believe that everything that is going to happen, happens; there is no other way to prevent it. If it weren't for a Chinese Chorale contest held in the school, DK, Nikko, and I wouldn't be close friends today. The question is, if it weren't because of destiny, I wouldn't be chosen to join the competition. Why me? Why not others? As for Steph, we were seat mates, and we both share some same interests, so I guess that's what kept us close. For the others, the same reasons apply.

Now in college, I feel that I have to start everything from scratch. I have to search for people whom I felt comfortable with. I have to find people who share the same interests as me. Apparently, I've found a couple of friends from our class in this 3 months time. I knew that we could be friends the moment we had our first conversation, but that is still a very big uncertainty. I guess its like what Steph said in Nikko's post, time will tell. How I wish I could find friends in college that are like my high school friends. I don't know if there is that possibility, but I will try my best to. As I never know the result when I haven't even tried it.

Luckily, I find myself very comfortable now with my classmates in university. They are very sociable and supportive. We often have lunch together; it was really fun to have lunch with a big group of people. Anywhere we go, we become the noisiest group in that place. I definitely enjoy the freedom in college. There is nothing I cannot do, not inside the campus, of course :P

As for my studies, I can say that my study habits had changed a lot. Back in high school, I was the happy-go-lucky type of student. I never really review my lessons in advance; all I do is cram. Now in college, I decided that I have to stop being carefree and concentrate on my studies, because I realized that knowledge is the key to achieving my goals. I must say that the transition period was a bit tough. I'm not used to studying lessons in advance, or doing projects weeks before the deadline. Well, after about a month, I was able to cope up and finally, loosen up a bit.

Now, its the end of the first term and the second term shall start after 2 weeks. I've gotten my final grades of PE and psychology, it turned out well. I got a 4.0 for PE (the highest grade) and a 3.0 for psychology. There are 6 more to come, and I hope the grades will be satisfying. This is fresh start for me, so I hope everything would go smooth. I also hope that things will happen like what I planned and expected them to.

"Life is like a boat..." (lyrics from a song) True, life is like a boat, because you never know what will happen next. What if a storm comes? What if the boat sinks? You could float and sail till eternity, but you could also disappear in just a split second of carelessness. Like our lives, we face challenges and obstacles all the time. It is in our decision whether to overcome them or surrender to them.