Tuesday, July 04, 2006

What is this feeling?

Ever since I started university, I couldn't sleep early every night not until 1am. Loads of homework and projects were given to us every day. I came to a point that wherever and whenever I am, my mind is fully loaded with the things I have to do. Even in my dreams while I was sleeping, numbers, phrases, and the faces of the professors appear. Are those nightmares??? I always dizzy when I wake up, with the school works still stuck in my head.

So I could relax, I often turn-on my msn and yahoo messenger and chat with my friends while I do my homework. I would also turn-on windows media player and listen to music again and again until I finish what I'm doing. These are the only ways for me to relax and relieve myself from stress. I have a lot of friends, including online friends from different parts of the world. I thank them for entertaining me when I'm bored and tired.

Recently, one of my friend whom I chat with most often found a summer job. For almost two weeks now, I could rarely see him online. We could only chat once a week. He is really nice to chat with. He never fails to crack jokes to cheer me up. *Sigh* I don't know why, most of my online friends have all gone busy. Few were online to chat with me. I was really bored...but well it's ok as I could finish my homework faster haha

Even my friends in real life were all busy. They all have their own things to do, so of course, they would not have time to chat with me. I miss them...all my friends, including my online friends. How I wish I could see them again soon. How I wish I could talk and laugh with them again. Now that I'm in university, I kind of wanted to go back to high school and stay in the small and secure environment, together with my friends. While I was still in high school, I had wished every day to quickly graduate and start a new life in university... ( I really feel uncertain of what I truly want now.)

Tomorrow, I will be having my first piano lessons after two years of not having lessons. I'm excited and nervous too LOL I haven't had time to practice, so I hope I'd be able to do good tomorrow. I want to give a good first impression to my piano teacher haha :D Wish me luck! :P

2 comments:

Solomon said...

Waaa... I want piano lessons again! Lucky you... I only get to learn how to play myself.

ravenik45 said...

BOOOO I don't believe you.