Uncertainty

So short a time, yet so many recollections and moments...
So short a time, yet so many was gained and lost...

It was only 3 months time since university started, but I felt as if a year has passed. Even until now, I still feel amazed how smooth and rough things can be. I never expected college life would be so...so...unpredictable yet fun, at the same time. I didn't know that people would still be so nice in college, just like in high school. I've always assumed that people in college would not be that friendly as compared with people in high school, but I was happy to know that I was absolutely mistaken. Instead, I feel that my classmates now in college are far far better company than my classmates before. Sad to say, but true.

I remember before when I was still a new student in grade five, some of my new classmates treated me as if I was an alien, as if I'm an outcast. I don't know why and I really hate it. I hate the feeling of being isolated, just because I was new. I hate the way they look at me as if I had wings on my back or horns on my head. Am I that peculiar just because I came from another part of the country? I don't think so. Maybe its them who are peculiar. That is what I think of all the time to keep me from hitting or beating the crap out of someone.

How I got to find very very nice friends?I don't know. I guess its destiny. I believe that everything that is going to happen, happens; there is no other way to prevent it. If it weren't for a Chinese Chorale contest held in the school, DK, Nikko, and I wouldn't be close friends today. The question is, if it weren't because of destiny, I wouldn't be chosen to join the competition. Why me? Why not others? As for Steph, we were seat mates, and we both share some same interests, so I guess that's what kept us close. For the others, the same reasons apply.

Now in college, I feel that I have to start everything from scratch. I have to search for people whom I felt comfortable with. I have to find people who share the same interests as me. Apparently, I've found a couple of friends from our class in this 3 months time. I knew that we could be friends the moment we had our first conversation, but that is still a very big uncertainty. I guess its like what Steph said in Nikko's post, time will tell. How I wish I could find friends in college that are like my high school friends. I don't know if there is that possibility, but I will try my best to. As I never know the result when I haven't even tried it.

Luckily, I find myself very comfortable now with my classmates in university. They are very sociable and supportive. We often have lunch together; it was really fun to have lunch with a big group of people. Anywhere we go, we become the noisiest group in that place. I definitely enjoy the freedom in college. There is nothing I cannot do, not inside the campus, of course :P

As for my studies, I can say that my study habits had changed a lot. Back in high school, I was the happy-go-lucky type of student. I never really review my lessons in advance; all I do is cram. Now in college, I decided that I have to stop being carefree and concentrate on my studies, because I realized that knowledge is the key to achieving my goals. I must say that the transition period was a bit tough. I'm not used to studying lessons in advance, or doing projects weeks before the deadline. Well, after about a month, I was able to cope up and finally, loosen up a bit.

Now, its the end of the first term and the second term shall start after 2 weeks. I've gotten my final grades of PE and psychology, it turned out well. I got a 4.0 for PE (the highest grade) and a 3.0 for psychology. There are 6 more to come, and I hope the grades will be satisfying. This is fresh start for me, so I hope everything would go smooth. I also hope that things will happen like what I planned and expected them to.

"Life is like a boat..." (lyrics from a song) True, life is like a boat, because you never know what will happen next. What if a storm comes? What if the boat sinks? You could float and sail till eternity, but you could also disappear in just a split second of carelessness. Like our lives, we face challenges and obstacles all the time. It is in our decision whether to overcome them or surrender to them.

Booklovers

For those booklovers who want to get a catch of rare books, there will be an international book fair at the World Trade Center from August 30- September 3, 10am-8pm. Please tell me if you want to go, because I'm finding for a company :D Thanks! I'm on yahoo or msn anytime of the day, or you could send me a text message. See ya!

FREE!!!! (finally :P)

Today was our last day of classes for the first term. We had our final exam in computer today. The test was weird...all about the shortcut keys of ms word,ms excel, and ms powerpoint lol That kinda froze me, I never use shortcut keys. Last night I only scanned the shortcut keys part of the reviewer given to us. CRAP! I made guesses all throughout the exam and guess what? I got a score of 20 out of 30. I passed! LUCKY! lol I do hope that I get a general score average of at least 3.0 hehe

For the first time since classes started...I could finally slow down to my usual pace, even if its just for 2 weeks. My friends, Jessica and Joyce, and I went to Robinson's Place after the exam. The trip was good. We went to Powerbooks, bought some books, and went to BreadTalk afterwards. I haven't been able to shop in a mall feeling so relaxed ever since classes started. After strolling in the mall for 2 hours, we went home :)

On August 28, we have to submit a written report of our debate in Chemistry class just before the exam week. On August 31, course cards(score/report cards) will be distributed to us. I hope I could be in the Deans List--my goal for the first and the incoming terms. Well, of coure if I could, I would try to aim higher :P

After August 31 till September 10, we'll be having our term break. Wohoo! Finally! Ah well...the real term break was only for 10 days *sigh* Why does DLSU have to be in such a hurry to start classes??? :( Anyway, I'm also excited to start the GOOD class schedule I have for the second term. My classes will be starting 7am until 11:30am. No classes in the afternoon! haha

So...that's it. Term break will start soon, so I'm sure I'm gonna be able to post a lot of new posts here hehe :P

Happy Birthday...to....

Happy birthday to my dearest MOM!!!

Today is my mom's birthday. Tonight we're going out to celebrate weeee :D God bless!

Would you also greet my mom? hehe Thanks! :P

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I Wish To Reach You

I wish I could reach you,
I wish I could see you,
I wish I could hear you,
I wish I could touch you.

I want to know where you are,
Yet I don't know where to start;
I know you're far away,
Yet I feel as if you're beside me.

I see you wherever I go,
Every word you said to me,
Marked on my heart,
And it will always be there.

I remember your smile,
For it always lightens my mood.
I remember your face,
For it always calms me.

When I feel lonely,
I would think of you;
Looking back to our memories,
I still feel the sweetness in between.

You promised me to come back,
Yet you made me wait till now;
It was so long ago that you left,
And still, you did not return.

Often times I wonder,
Have you ever thought of me?
Do you still remember me?
Am I not more than a stranger to you?

I will wait till you come,
No matter what happens,
I will always be there,
Waiting for your embrace to come.

Maybe you would wonder why I would write something so weird so suddenly. Well, to answer that question, I was inspired by the romance novels I was reading recently. These novels enclose so many wonderful stories that made me want to express my feelings on reading these books. I thought maybe writing something down and sharing with others would make me feel better lol :P Hope you guys like it...if not, emmm I'll try to write something cooler next time HAHA Well, I guess this is what you would get from a blogger who love to read romance fiction. DK, maybe you could relate with what I'm writing?LOL We used to share our opinions about these novels with each other :D

Is online friendship good or bad?

"Is online friendship good or bad?" This is the question I often ask myself. I've always wondered whether my decision to meet friends online was right or wrong.

I think the most probable reason I started finding friends online was because of curiosity. I wanted to meet people all around the world and get to know their cultures' similarities and differences with my culture. I want to know what they think about matters that I think are important. It would be fun to hear various opinions from different kinds of people.

How I started meeting friends online? Well, it all started when I was 13 years old. I saw in tv people using some programs like ICQ,MSN, Yahoo chatting with people they have never met. I was curious so I went to the internet and downloaded the ICQ. There, I met some new friends and eventually, I became more and more interested with the way people could chat and talk about anything when they haven't even met before.

I did meet a couple of nice people. There was a girl from Ireland, whom we became good friends, but later we lose contact because she disappeared. I don't know what happened to her, but she stopped e-mailing me, and if I mailed her, she does not reply anymore. Another was a guy from Belarus, whom we still keep in contact till now. We only talked again not until a few months ago because I stopped using ICQ when I reached 14 years old. I got bored, and also due to heavy school work, I had to stop and devot my time to my studies.

It was on the summer break after I graduated high school that I thought again of contacting my old friends in ICQ and try to meet some more new friends. I tried going to ICQ chat room and started chatting with people there. After some time, I found some new friends that are cool and nice to chat with. Though there were so many I chatted with, only a few were able to remain in contact with me till now. Its been almost 5 months since I went back to chatting in ICQ chatroom.

I was on my summer vacation, waiting for my university classes to start, so I was so bored that I went to the chatroom everyday and spent every minute I'm awake staying there, talking nonsense and sometimes watching other people chat LOL

Now, to answer my own question...I think online friendship is not at all that bad, except that it eats up all your leisure time, but wholly depends on how you manage your time. It is always good to interact with other people to widen your knowledge about the world. The one thing I got from having online friendships is having my English writing and speaking skills improve a lot. Before, I felt so hard to express myself on words, especially in English, but now, I feel a lot easier to talk and write. I do not anymore need too much brainstorming before I start writing something because I could easily organize my thoughts and write them down properly.

Once, if you remember, I mentioned that our psychology teacher asked us a question --"Do you have online friends?" Of course my answer was yes, but most of my classmated answered no. Their reasons were, "My mom said that I should never talk to strangers." , "I prefer meeting people in real life because online friendship degrades the meaning of friendship." Well...they are right in some way, but isn't that a bit childish? I mean, you do not degrade the meaning of friendship by having online friends because like friends in real life, you talk about your interests and daily happenings, the only difference is that you do not see each other. For me it is alright not to see the person because is does not matter as long as I know that the person I'm talking to also exists in real life, except that he/she lives in a different of the world.

So...what do you think? Is online friendship good or bad? I know many of you would probably say "I don't know because I haven't tried." Then try now! haha I'm sure you'd be interested ;) There's nothing bad to try, besides, online friendship exists only in the virtual world, so there's nothing to lose if you fail. Right Jocke and Nikko? haha :P

Friday...one more week

One more week and its term break!Wohoo!!!

Next week is our finals exam on math and computer. Oh well, I really have to study hard for this last struggle. I need a 96% in math to get a 3.0 in my general average :S (Coz my I screwed up my 4th math quiz and got a 49% out of 100%) Crap! I did not expect that grade...but I think I deserved it coz I was too occupied in doing the assignments of the other subjects that I did not have time to review for the math quiz :( The moment I got my test paper, I almost went numb. I can't believe what I'm seeing >.< I swear I'm gonna study hard for the finals exam to pull-up my low quiz average *sigh*

HELP!!!!! Matrix inversion...Cramer's rule...cofactor...Gaussian Method...NOOOO I'm so confused. This is the worst part in algebra @_@

Tomorrow afternoon I will have to go to the university to attend a make-up class in which I can earn extra credits and I'm going to skip the morning make-up class of Ursula ( our computer professor..Ursula is the sea witch in The Little Mermaid LOL). She will have to live with the name for the rest of her life. hahaha >:)

Next week...next week...forgive me if I'm starting to become redundant. I just can't get my mind off next week. Besides the final exams, I have also to submit a portfolio for English, a written report for the Chemistry debate, and a photo collage for psychology. So many things to do, yet so little time...God help me! :S

P.S. Thanks to all of my friends out there for their continuous support and encouragement that I was able to overcome every challenge I met in my new university life. Thank you! I love you all! Thank you also for always visiting my blog and giving me valuable comments that helped me in my writing here :P

Free at last!

After almost 3 months of enduring the harshness of military training, yesterday(August 12,2006) was finally the last training day for the first term.

Yesterday was the commandant turn-over ceremony of the military organization of the university. It was really boring. We had to stand at the football field for almost 6 hours under the heat of the sun. The first 4 hours, we had rehearsals for the ceremony. After the 20-min. break, the ceremony was to start. Our officer told us that we had just to stand for 30 minutes without moving, but later, when the ceremony started, it turned out that the ceremony took over an hour to finish.

There was the old and new core commander delivering their speech. The speech of the new core commander was boring. He was telling a weird story, which I don't understand. I had to try my best to keep my eyelids from coming down. I had to try hard to stand straight, despite my aching shoulders and arms. While the ceremony was being held, I kept saying "faster faster faster!" , praying that the speakers would talk faster so we could dismiss earlier O_o

After over an hour of standing without moving, my legs went numb. I felt as if I was paralyzed LOL I can't even feel the pain anymore. When the officer commanded us to scram out the field within 10 seconds, I was surprised that my legs can no longer run and my knees cannot anymore bend >.< With the voice of the officer counting down beside...I tried my best to "run" HAHA

I was happy that I was one of the few who withstood the heat until the end and was still able to get out the field without fainting LOL Many cadets from our platoon fell and had to be carried out the field to rest. Our officer congratulated us, "survivors," for being to able to stand till the end. I felt good about that, considering that my arms and legs still hurt till now :P

But, at the same time of triumph, there was also a bad news waiting for me. Remember my tennis tryouts? The assistant coach told us that he would send us a message when the results are out. I haven't received the message till now, after the tryout 3 weeks ago. Since I am really running out of patience, I asked another girl who also went to the tryouts yesterday whether she had received the message or not. Her answer was "yes." At that moment, I immediately knew that I did not pass the tryout, for the girl I asked was the same girl whom I mentioned before who played like a pro. CRAP! I want to curse myself for not playing well during the tryouts.

In order to have my outburst, I went to play tennis yesterday afternoon for almost 2 hours, putting out my full strength. I felt so relaxed after the 2 hours because I haven't practiced tennis for a month, which is as long as a whole year for me. I also invited Solomon to play tennis. The coach told me that I need more strength to increase the speed of the returned balls, so I decided that I could need a bit of help from weights. Later today, I am going to SM Mall of Asia to buy weights, just the light ones coz I don't want to get big muscular arms @_@

Oh well, I guess I'll have to practice more so I can join the tryout again on the third term. I've decided that I would pass the varsity tryout no matter what. Thanks for the incoming 2-week term break this August 28,2006, I could go play tennis everyday or at least thrice a week. I hope I could improve faster.

Friends out there, whoever wants to play tennis, just tell me. We could go to the tennis court together ;) I'm a member there, so we could play anytime. Welcome! See ya on my next post! :D

So near...yet so far

University life in DLSU is so fast-paced. In just a blink of an eye, almost 3 months had passed since the first day of classes. Next week is the activity ban week of the university--meaning no activities or quizzes should be held on that week, as it is the week before the final exams, it will be used for reviewing our past lessons.

So near...yet so far...August 28th seems so near, yet its still more than 2 weeks more time. August 28th is our last day of classes for the term, then we will have a 2-week long term break. YEY!Finally, after 3 whole months of pressure and stress, I can now rest and relax. Well...I'm starting to plan the things I'm going to the in the 2 weeks of break. Maybe I'd go practice tennis everyday and I'd also be able to have more time to practice piano. Currently, I'm working my way out of a piece entitled Sonatina. It's a lively piece, which means that it is also very hard to get the timing 0_o

Remember the gun firing I mentioned in my last post?I forgot to mention that our officer wants us all to write a reflection paper about that day. I don't know what to write...maybe something like what I did with my last post? >:) hmm That military training is really a pain in the ass...GRR Why oh why? The results of the tennis tryouts aren't out yet..I'm getting impatient. Really. I've tried all I can do to contact the assistant coach, but he either leaves his cellphone unattended or is away :(

Next week...
We're going to have a debate in Chemistry about environmental issues that will serve as a portion of our final grade. I haven't debated for years! I wonder if I could still remember the rules >.<>

Next next week...
Final exams week. Luckily, we'll only be having final exams for Math,Chemistry, and Computer classes. I'm, I must say, excited, even though I should be nervous LOL I hope my dreams would come true -- become a deans lister. Now that I knew that the military training grades is not included in the computation of grades, I feel more relaxed now. Because all I fear now is that my grade there would pull down my grades in other subjects.

Well...thats it. ^_^ Though these are all very normal things occuring on a normal teenager's life, I wish that you could get to know me better through these posts. Here in my blog, I could express all my thoughts without any constraints, so believe me, what I write here are all facts ;)

This is so fun!!!

Thursday and Friday...
Due to my fever these two days, I wasn't able to attend my classes except for PE class because we're having a quiz and a fitness test. Luckily, the quiz was easy :D

Saturday...
Today, we will be having gun firing in military training for our final exam. At first, I can't decide whether to attend or not because I've just recovered from the fever and heavy training and severe exposure to the sunlight might worsen my condition. If I didn't go, I'd surely get a failure grade for not attending the exam. Finally, after a long time of thinking, I decided to go.

Well, my decision turned out to be right. We assembled in the university campus on 6:30am and due to some delays, we departed at approximately 7:45am. That was almost 2 hours of waiting inside the non-airconditioned bus. After about 20 min. of bus ride, we arrived at the Fort Bonifacio Marine Camp. This is where the camp of the Philippine Marine Corps live and train.

Some battling demonstrations were shown to us. It was all nice, but the one thing I felt excited and nervous about is the gun firing/ familiarization firing. We were permitted to tour around the marine vehicles. The problem is, we were to right a reflection paper after our visit in the camp :(
After that, we went to a lecture room to watch some marine videos showing us information about the Philippine Marine and its achievements.

After the movie presentation, we went to have lunch. Then finally, the moment that we've all longed for has arrived--GUN FIRING. After some brief instructions regarding the precautions and proper usage of the rifle, we were to start the first round firing. All of us positioned and START! The 1st round was a trial round with 3 shots. I was really nervous. When I fired my first shot on the target, I almost went deaf and the recoil of the gun was quite a big impact to my shoulders. The sound of the gun was so loud that it temporarily "paralyzed" my ear. Ignoring that, I continued and delivered my 2 other shots. Then we were asked to check the target and luckily, I got 2 out of 3 shots in the circle, but not the bulls-eye :(

Now, after the 3 trial shots is our 7 final shots. I positioned myself on the ground again, then aimed on the target and fired. Because almost all of us fired at the same time, my vision was blurred by the noice and smoke. Without any choice, I focused and tried to shoot again. After some struggles, I finally managed to shoot out. The shooting continued until all the 7 shots were used up. Putting down the m-16 rifle, we went to look get our target paper. On my target paper, I had 5 shots on it, and the other 5 shots are nowhere to be found LOL All in all, I only got 2 shots out of 10 in the circle and the other three outside the circle, while 6 of my fellow cadets( 3 females and 3 males) were able to hit the bulls-eye and earn incentives :(

I guess my vision has a great effect. My left eye is 200 and right eye is 100. Oh well, at least I got to experience the fun and excitement. The squad officer told us that as long as we have a shot in the target cirlce, we could get a passing grade, so I'm satisfied with my performance. After waiting for my other fellow cadets to finish their turn of firing, we headed back to the bus and rode back to the university campus.

This day is the best training day I've had so far since the opening of school. But after 2 long hours, my left ear had still not recovered from the previous "shock" caused by the rifle. Besides that, everything went well. No accidents happened. I was glad that everyone followed instructions carefully :D

I figured out that shooting is addictive. Shooting once makes me wish for more. I hope I'd have another chance to shoot again, but hopefully, using a different rifle model.

Today was a tiring day and I'm glad that my health was able to sustain the heat of the sun and the coolness of the rain afterwards.

Next time...next time...I want to try again!!!

P.S. We were permitted to keep the empty bullet shells of our amunition. WOW! A once in a lifetime remembrance :D

Life without internet is like hell!!!

Last Friday, when I got home, my mom told me that the phone was out of order. I almost went crazy especially when thinking that I won't be able to do homework and chat with friends for I don't know how many days.

Finally, after six long days, we got the phone repaired by calling up the phone line company. We called them the day after the phone lose dial tone, but thet only came after six days! OMG! I have loads of pending homework waiting for the phone to be repaired so I can search in the internet.

Life without internet is like hell! I felt as if I was isolated from the world , without being able to read news and chat with my friends,even if it was just for 6 days. I became so bored in the last few days. I do not know what to do, then I thought of reading novels, which I havent done for 2 months. I decided to finish a novel within 3 days, and so I started reading. The novel was by my favorite author, Judith McNaught. It was a very very nice novel. One of the best I've read. Thank God that I always have new unread books in stock for "emergency," or else I would have went crazy or sick LOL :D

Today, my mom sent me a message telling me good news, that the phone has been repaired. I almost jumped with joy, if it weren't only for my math class that I was still having. But, sadly, only the telephone extension in our dining room works, but the one in my room is still out of order. *SIGH* At least I get to use the internet, only that I have to move my laptop to the dining room.

Oh well...out of topic. I dont know what else to say. I just felt saying my bad feelings out loud :P See you on my next post :D